We had said good-bye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each other’s arms. But now when we said this goodbye I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. And I honestly don’t wanna cross your path in the future cause I don’t want all these feelings to come back and have to try to get over all over again. But yeah, I’ll be fine without you, I’ll make it somehow. and soon I’ll get over you.
I hope that some day, you find an amazing girl. The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it`s for the better. I hope she’s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up and hold her in your arms like you`re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her you never forget. I hope she’s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection. And I hope that one day, you lose her. I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart. I hope it destroys you, because you realize you’ve lost the person you once called your everything. I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night because she’s on your mind and when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I hope you realize that you’re a new person because of her, I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and you miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone, because you’d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken.
You know, I don’t believe the saying “There is no past tense in loving someone. Either you do, or you never did.” See, that doesn’t register with my brain. And I don’t know, maybe I’m wrong. But I think that after you’re done wrong so many countless times, and after they’ve decided over and over to throw your heart away, I think all that love that once existed is put to some good use. By good use, I mean to the right person. To the person that’s really been waiting there for a long time. The person that won’t treat you the way you were treated. Then you won’t have to take any of that love back. After all, you won’t want to.