I’m afraid I’ll end up alone. I’m scared that I’m always gonna be the ‘sister’ or ‘friend’ or the ‘confidant,’ not quite somebody’s everything. I’m scared that I’ll never find a guy that I’ll love as much as I love you.
I don’t think people are meant to be by themselves. That’s why if you actually find someone you care about, it’s important to let go of the little things, even if you can’t let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more then feeling all alone, no matter how many people are around you.
Sometimes I hope we’re still friends when I get married. I hope that I’ll invite you to my wedding and you’ll come. Then you’ll see me as the happiest girl in the world. You’ll see me with a guy who treats me right and loves me more than himself. You’ll see all you could’ve had and you’ll regret letting me go, but the thing I want you to see the most is that I survived without you.
You absolutely destroyed me, did you know that? But you know what, I just wanna say thank you. I don’t regret meeting you, but I don’t wish you would magically come back into my life again because I believe God gives us someone like this for a reason. Someone who will hurt you a million times, someone who will leave you & not look back. But this person, they will make you a better person in the end. You will come out stronger than ever before and you will be happier without him than you were with him.